Monday, July 13, 2009
He won't give me more than I can handle!
Ugh!!!! Well, I'm here in our new town and I want to say it has been a crazy couple weeks! The Military puts us up in a hotel until we find a house so I'm sitting here at my mini hotel desk. I don't really know where to start. We finally received our orders and instantly set up a moving company date through the military once again. United is the company they are using. The last couple weeks I have been coughing and thought that it was allergies but literally the day the movers came to pack up the house I had been vomiting since 1:00am that morning.On top of that I left the kids with my friends and it was the first time I had EVER left Sawyer with anyone! Poor Brent! I had to leave him alone with the movers and have faith in the movers that they were doing their job right and not robbing us blind. I HAD to go to the urgent care!!! I was there for quite a while with a breathing treatment, two steroid shots, anti-biotic, other breathing thingy's they gave me and I still kept vomiting. The next day the movers loaded the big old moving van and I had tons of help with the kids from my sweet little 18 year old neighbor. She's married and has a baby on the way and has ton's of Motherly instinct kicking in! After the movers left I had about 4 hours to scrub down the house til the landlord showed up to inspect the house and give the keys to the new tenants (which I new). She obviously had faith in me to have the new tenants meet her there and give the keys to them to move in the next day! Of course she knows me! So for four hours I scrubbed base boards, scrubbed walls, bleached two entire bathrooms, vacuumed & Steam cleaned. I was smart and did the oven a couple days prior. Needless to say we not only received our deposit back but we also go our non-refundable pet deposit back! That night at 9:30pm we drove to our new home 1 1/2 hours away. So once again here I am in the hotel until we find a place. The hotel is amazing!! But, I am already over it a bit I think. Sawyer is now sick and I am on the mend, Brent is at his new job and Memphis is stir crazy! I have yet to sit and think about everything...that is until just a bit ago and now I hurt! I am happy and proud of my husband and I am excited about new opportunities but I am inpatient and outgoing and loud and NEED PEOPLE!! I miss my friends and hurt for my son that he doesn't have anyone to play with and am sad to see on Facebook them making plans. I want plans! Why does my heart hurt and I feel like a bad mother if I don't constantly have stimulation for my children. Ugh! Okay I think my pitty party is done.....maybe! I think this is maybe the second time I really sat and cried. They say God doesn't give you more than you can handle. When I prayed last night I asked him if he might possibly have gotten me mixed up with another Gina....Seriously! Hey God! I am the one that stresses and has anxiety attacks and has to have a system in place and vomits when I'm scared! Tonight I am going to pray for me to realize that he is in control but to help me deal with relinquishing it again! Seriously...Gina M....Right?!?!